20 Years Ago
1988...
I was eight. It's hard for me to pull out memories that are attached to a certain time from that long ago because my life was so chaotic. Between my parents fighting and us moving so much, I don't really know where I was before I was ten half the time. I think we were living in Dallas... I went to third and fourth grade there, had a best friend, there was a boy named Jonathan who bought me ice cream from the ice cream man... He was one of several Jonathans I adored in my youth.. Maybe Jonathans were the way to go for me instead of all of these boys whose names begin with "M"...
15 Years Ago
1993...
This was the year before we left Hawaii. This is the year I became a teenager.. I turned thirteen... The next year our house burned down and we left Hawaii and moved to Port Aransas, Texas. I started my life when we left Hawaii.
10 Years Ago
1998...
2 kids later... :) 1998 was the year Em was born. She was born May 18th, 1998 at 8:48 in the morning. She was all about the eights. Her name was Elizabeth for the first twenty four hours and I just didn't like it. So I changed it :) I made her name Emilee Hope because it had the same amount of letters as Amanda Kate and because it had three E's and Amanda's name has three A's (now Trin's has three I's). And also because my best friend from high schools middle name is Lee. God I was such a mess back then. I was so... scared. Or unsure... I knew that my life sucked ass and that no one was going to change that but me but I didn't know if I could and I didn't know how and I didn't know where to begin. I look back at ten years ago and I am so glad I've already made it through these last ten, they were hard years and while necessary, I'm glad I don't have to relive them.
5 Years Ago
2003...
If I was scared shitless ten years ago, I was ready five years ago. I was done taking shit off of... anyone really. I knew what I needed to do and I was ready to do it. Five years ago I was confident that there was an arriving place in the journey to become me. I was confident in myself... and really, isn't that the hardest part of becoming yourself? Actually believing that you can do it?
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