Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Sitting, waiting, wishing...
Ok, so honestly, the song title up there has little to do with what is going on in my life, short of the title itself. Well the title and this:
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Yeah, I am going crazy. I haven't mentioned on here much about it because I am that superstitious. I am knock-on-wood, wish-on-eyelashes, avoid-stepping-on-cracks, cross-my-fingers, superstitious. I believe in Karma too. How freaked out are you right now? Huh?

Um, so anyway. I am trying to buy a house right now. This is my second attempt in the last three years to buy a home, by myself. The first time was... interesting to say the least. But my realtor, lovely little gay man that he was, fucked me. He totally got a better deal somewhere else or something because he just fell of the face of the planet for about three weeks and left me high and dry. By the time he got back, the place was sold and I was burnt out.
I put 'Buying a home' somewhere near the bottom of my 'to do' list... I think it was under 'Learn to mow grass' and above 'Take up skateboarding'. Anyway, I decided renting wasn't so bad and I would try again in a few years.
Then this place sort of fell into my lap. When it was mentioned to me, I decided to look into it and approach the entire deal with complete nonchalance. I learned my lesson the last time and had no intentions of getting my or the girls' hopes up. I waited until we had started paper work on loans and hiring inspectors and appraisers before I even mentioned it to the girls.
Now the girls are beyond jazzed and I am mentally arranging my furniture. Bad Kate. And we are in limbo. I am waiting to hear from someone who is waiting to hear from someone. Apparently with out endless funds, buying a house takes a lot of patience. I have accepted that it is out of my control for now and that I will just take getting it or not getting it as a sign as to whether I should have it. If it is meant to be, then it will be.
But DAMN IT. I am not a patient woman. In fact, I am typically the furthest thing from it. I hate waiting weeks for things to transpire. I just want to know. Just tell me yes or no. I can take either.... although the former of the two would mean that I would have to move 'Learn to mow grass' to the top of my list since this place has five acres. But all of this "Sitting, waiting, wishing" is driving me insane.
I have probably just jinxed everything by telling the entire blogosphere anyway :) But since I was tempted to start packing some things up while I was cleaning this past weekend and my friends are referring to it as "your new house" and offering to help move, I figure if it was jinxable, I have jinxed it already.
Cross something for me people, if the girls and I don't get another bathroom soon, all hell will break loose.
~K
so eloquently put by katehopeeden at 12:02 AM
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