Oh baby, when did Friday start to look so sexy? I remember when Friday was just kinda hot.... or back in school when Friday was just a cute dude I checked out from across the classroom but was kind of indifferent to. No, my friends, Friday has blossomed into a hunky, ripped, stud-muffin with a good job and spontaneous tendencies to be romantic. I luff him.
I'm entering a calm. A place in my life where things are slowed down and calm. It's like when the wave comes in on a beach and water runs all over your feet for a few seconds before heading back out to sea. I can already see the calm receding. But I chose to walk on the sand and not follow the water back into the tide. I've chosen to turn completely away from the sea and walk into the dunes for a bit.
I should be scared shitless right?
Well maybe it is the fact that it hasn't happened yet and so I still have time to follow the sea or maybe it's just because I am so damn confident that I believe it's something I can accomplish. I feel confident. Things feel attainable. I feel like this ride has slowed down enough that I can look out and enjoy the views and enjoy the thrill of the ride for a little while and I can see the giant dip ahead... the one that is going to make feel like throwing my head back and screaming in utter terror. And today, I feel like the ride will catch and smooth out and I will be able to sit up and smile and say, "fuck, that was scary but a little fun and now that we've crossed through the dunes to this new ocean, I want to stay in the water for awhile."
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