Monday, February 25, 2008
I had this amazing dream....
I've been thinking about this dream that I had last night all morning trying to think of some way to take it from dream form and put it into blog form. It's hard because so much of it was the way it felt and it's hard to convey that.
I was at a bar of some kind, it seemed that it was mostly outside and then this song came on... I don't know if it was on headphones or the speaker system or what but it came on and I remember the song being so... deep. Like I felt this song the way you would feel a Damien Rice song.
Now I wasn't at the bar to drink or hang out with friends, I was waiting for something.
And when this song came on, I kind of wandered around jamming out to the song. And that was when HE saw me and came over and suddenly I knew why I was there. I was waiting for him. He came and danced with me and then kissed me. And not that fire through your body kiss that is all about how quickly you can get naked but rather that soulful love kiss. Someone, his boss I guess, told us we could go out back... we walked around the back of the building and there is a pool with this chaise lounge next to it and he laid down on it and I laid down in front of him, his arms wrapped around me.
It was all that stuff that I've been blogging about here. All of that comfort and oneness and security. Obviously right? Have it on the brain and it follows you to bed...
But here was the weird thing, I am laying there talking to this guy and he asks me what would be the one thing you would tell her? and I answer him this, I would tell her about this... about you. Then she wouldn't be so anxious, she would know it was coming.
I knew that it was me talking to me, I knew that the "she" she was referring to was herself in the past. He was asking her what she would tell herself from so many years ago.
It was like I was sending myself this message from the future in my dreams.
And this guy, I couldn't see him. He had dark hair but I don't remember anything else and he was everything to me. I can't even explain this feeling of perfect completeness that accompanied him and us. It was like I dream it to be where there is no doubt just knowing.

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