You know those humane mouse traps? The glue ones? Are those considered humane? I don't know now that I think about it... anyway, I feel like I'm stuck to one. Like my life is a giant glue mouse trap and I'm just stuck to it. And some days I get this burst of energy or optimistic enthusiasm and try and pull off of it but I don't make enough progress and end up laying back down on it. Stuck.
I hate that.
I don't want to feel that way about my life. I mean, fuck, it's MY LIFE. It's not like there is a guarantee of another one. I want to feel inspired. Loved. Excited. Breathless. Certain. I want to look around and see wonder. I want to marvel at it all.
Am I spoiled?
Insatiable?
Bored?
I don't know. But I want more. I'm not satisfied with it all.
I used to feel bad saying that, like I wasn't grateful for what I do have. Like it wasn't this amazing thing that I went from being this high school drop out mom to where I am now.
I am grateful. But I am no longer afraid or abashed to say I want more.
I want more.

Labels: Because I Said So, Being a Chic

Labels: Beach Trip, Because I Said So, Being Mommy, my crazy life, sandcastles, Snakeman, unsolicited advice

So last night I watched Because I Said So. And since this blog has apparently turned into a website where I review the latest movie that made me cry, I'll tell you about it.
Before I tell you about the movie though, let me tell you about the new boy I am in love with: Gabriel Macht

Isn't he adorable? Even more adorable if you see him when he first comes onto the screen and he is wearing his cute little hat and dressed like Blake Lewis from American Idol 6. And just too un-fucking-believably gorgeous.
*sigh*
It makes you want to scream "WHERE IS MY CUTE BOY? HEY UNIVERSE??? I THINK YOU FORGOT TO GIVE ME MY CUTE BOY!!"
And as if his being a cute boy weren't enough! Oh no, on top of THAT he is also a SINGLE DAD!
Just impale me now.
Note to self: These perfect guys only exist in the movies. They are not real, only in the movies Kate. Deep Breath.

Anyway, good points from the movie:
The mom was a single mom of three daughters (*ahem* - sound like anyone we know?) and she loves it. At one point another character (I think the dad from Seventh Heaven) is saying to her that it must have been hard having three girls and she just smiles and tells him that there are worse things.
And there are people. Much worse things.
And the mother and the daughters had a FANTASTIC relationship. They called each other on conference calls to gossip and they shopped together and went to spas together. I think of all the parts of the entire movie, my favorite was the relationship that the mom had with her daughters.
Anyway, I don't want to spoil the whole thing because I want you guys to watch this one.
Go rent The Holiday, Catch and Release & Because I Said So and have yourselves a nice little sobfest.
I'll be here when you get back :)

Labels: American Idol 6, Because I Said So, Being a Chic, Being Mommy, I'm a loser, My pathetic excuse for a love life, The Universe, what you should be watching